The Creed of the Abused and Uncherished

Do not show emotion
for it shows weakness

Do not calculate dreams
for they will never come true

Do not wish for better
for it just can't happen

Do not pray for change
for it is too hard to achieve

Do not hope for love
for is is not conceivable

Do not ache for peace
for you do not need it

Do not long for better
for you just don't deserve it

Just take it...

...and maybe it will stop

Written: 2004

Chancing Fate

the feelings in my stomach have just moved to my head.
i wonder...is this real? can these feelings be led?
can i really care this much this soon?
should i tell him the truth or just let him assume?
is fate the cause of my troubled heart?
or did i misinterpret...did i have a part?
sometimes i feel as if my heart will burst
and he still won't be here...and i'll still be hurt
but what if he doesn't care like i want him to?
what if i am just a friend, surely that will do
then i would get to keep him as my very own
but then i wouldn't get to hold him when the nights are long
oh what do i do with these feelings i have?
do i send them away? do i call them a cab?
do i send them back to wherever they came?
and hope they don't return to bring me more pain
i can't do that because surely i wouldn't survive
and my heart would stil hurt and i would still cry
and i would always wonder if he cared the way i did
and i would never know if it was pain that he hid
if maybe he cared and we would be together one day
and then my problems would just melt away
i would finally hold the one fate wanted me to hold
and there he would be and we would grow old
and i would live a life fullfilled because of fate
because losing him is a chance i can't take
so i will tell him and maybe he'll see
that right here with me is where he needs to be

Written: 2002