abortion of mind

i remember when i lost my mind. i was destined to be this way.

i thought i had had enough. but i was wrong.

i took a little more. like a coke addict waiting for her next fix.

i took and i took.

then i awoke an empty shell of my former self.

no longer to be the same.

i was cold and beaten down.

what was love? i didnt care anymore.

all i knew is that if love felt like that, i wanted no part of it.

that is when i lost my mind. and started a new one.

i aborted myself to start new life.

no more of what i once was. no more of what it used to be.

and i will not allow. i can not allow.

anyone to taint my current self.

my current mind.

you cant get in, so don't try.

it would be wasted efforts. only to be scoffed in the end.

its just not worth it. so don't bother.