the other side

i find myself in a haze.

the fog hasn't quite disappeared.

apparitions. they come and go.

the ghosts of my past like my company.

my eyes close.

but my mind wanders.

to it's own place.

it's happy place.

where all things are delightful.

and nothing bleeds.

and my heart.

it still beats.

it still feels.

it still loves.

to be loved.

tingly inside and not sure why.

something is coming.

and i am waiting.

to finally look it in the face.

and know i made it.

to the other side.